over a month now
and i wake up every day hoping it might be my last.
this can’t be normal,
and what’s strange is:
i don’t want any help.
i just want to be quiet and left
alone.
I’m just really
not okay right now.
how
did
i let
it get
this
bad
?
mixed / s g i n l a s
forward, MARCH.
we’re almost there—-
my stare,
focused on the goal,
i know my place : i know my role
in this army
this battle
this war of the heart
we start
to feel confident.
[then the ambush arrives]
and suddenly we aren’t marching foward
but sideways,
and for days,
back,
and we lack
all the momentum we previously had.
SHOOT! fire!
Kill—-
take none.
WAIT, we must imprison one
to let us know whats happening
OH FUCK,
just take out anything!
Now everything is a mixed signal,
and in trying to stay alive:
I have lost my direction,
I have lost my will to fight.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead; I lift my eyes and all is born again.Sylvia Plath
7009.) I hate the person I’ve become.
(via blogsecret)
